ALINA♥JUNRUI

♥ Monday, July 13, 2009

♥ I LOVE YOU ♥

One week of attachment and i wanted to quit.
Its so tough and i had this feeling of giving up.
But its only the start):
I still got another 23more weeks, ohmy!
I cant pull myself up, i dont have the strength.
Working in this industry is difficult.

You meet different people and tends to dislike the people you working with.

Im controlling my mood, my emotions.

I just really dont wish to work anymore.

But still, and yet, i got no choice.

Everyone in my position is going on, i got to follow.

I dont wish to give up, i will continue as far as possible.

Its tiring, but still what can i do, nobody can help me except myself.

Sometimes, my motivation went down, i cant climb up.

Im surviving, Im going on with my motivation from my bf.

We suffer together now and enjoy later.
I will do it, i tell myself i can.
Endurance, thats the key.
I will work hard and be in a better position in future.
I will try my best to continue.
Adapt the life there, and continue.
And weeks after weeks, months after months, it'll pass.
I can do it, i'll always keep in my mind.
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Its been one week and both of us have not been meeting): im terribly sad.
I wish he was here with me.
But i cant rely on him always.
All i need now, is to see him and talking to him.
I miss the times we had together so much.
I understand that we have to work, i still got to move on.
I shouldnt think so much, but i just kept thinking.
I felt so down (sigh)..
(Im crying).. D: i cant control it.
Even at work, i tends to control my tears.
Seeing the couples everywhere, i felt so no love.
I understand.
I shouldnt put ths things during work. I tried.
I will wait till the day we can meet. That will be so great.
But still im so thinking now): no one can help me solve, its up to me.
I really miss him so much, imagine that. Know my feelings):
Work Work Work.
Sleep Sleep Sleep.
Eat Eat Eat.
NO MEET NO MEET NO MEET, ITS the WORST THINGS EVER.
Im moving on, i hope time faster pass):
Sadly, its so slow.
What else can i say, nothingnothingnothing):

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